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Starting a New Decade


I'm roughly six hours away from my second decade of existence. That is, I only have a few hours left to enjoy my teenage years. What the heck. As if there is something worthwhile from becoming a teenager. Yeah, I'm bitter.

Bitterness, I suppose, is sweet. It is like putting something inside your mouth, playing it with your tongue and mixing it with your saliva and after letting it pass by your throat, all of a sudden, you'll be tasting a bit of bitterness. And this bitterness, again, should be sweet. If will not admit its sweetness, then really, I am bitter. But the thing is, I am not.

Even if I am having a hard time updating this site, I just couldn't help but say something before my birthday. Not 'my birthday' but 'another year of me.' Yes, I am not really into birthdays despite its being the most celebrated and most unforgettable occasion for a person's life. I just have a different point of looking into what my birthday (in your case, your birthday of course) means to me: It's not about celebrating it but remembering and looking ahead.

Uhuh, as conceptual as it is, my birthday tells me to end something that will serve a good start. Darn, what am I saying? Anyway, forget about all these nonsense philosophizing.

On the other hand, I find it nice and funny to read what I have written last year and how people reacted to it. (Click here if you wanna go through it). To give justice to it, the entries show how youthful I have been at the start of the year, that somehow can be used to trace on how cacophonous 2006 has been.

And I just miss a lot of things. My critics, writing, ... , etc.

In six hours, I am closing the second decade of my life and hopefully, I could start a better one - more excitements, more adventures and more success. And I have to say that this decade has been meaningful to me, in a lot of things that I can never forget. Ending gradeschool, entering HS, leaving HS legacies, beginning college and now, putting an end to academic life. I don't really know where my life would lead me, but I am sure that it will lead to what we call eudaimonia. (Just kidding, I just came from my philo exam).

What is this all about? Honestly, I don't know. I just feel like updating this one, after 10 years (yeah, 10 years has been a trend to denote the lag). I have so many things in mind that I couldn't write. Maybe, I am just out of words. OR I am just being overly dramatic. HAHA

Anyway, just to make sense here, I just want to kick-off another decade. May it be, if not as meaningful, more meaningful and a lot worthwhile. I had fun living this decade of youthfullness - double-sided, double-meaning.

Lots of thanks to those who responded, with or without prior notice. I deeply appreciate it. Cheers, a new beginning to all!

6:56 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
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capture the cacophony

I am XIANXU
20yo Mafin Grad
loves Ateneo.
hates oral exams.
likes fruits.
dislikes cooked fruits.
likes photography.
hates my photos.
loves sadness.
hates happiness.
loves philo.
loves math.
loves writing.
loves love.
loves you.
loves nothing
welcome to my Cacophony!

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