Numb
After the long day of walking fast under the heat of the sun, being caught in extremities, laughing with my interviewer Ivie, and bonding with Rhea and Paeng at Megamall, out of an impetuous stupidity, I missed my Philo oral exam.
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This will be the last, I promise.
6:53 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
A Fresh 'tart
I spent hours stealing moments of expressing my thoughts and doing everything and anything under the sun. And up to now, I still am. One hundred moments have passed and yet, things have never changed.
For how long will this be? No one knows. Rest assured, it will go for eternity.
Just look on how things have been; I never thought that it would go this far after almost a year. It should be enough, I guess, for me to start all over again. I have begun my journey as I started to sail back; hopefully, there is no turning back.
Thanks for all the happy moments and challenges.
Are you with me?
This is the first, after the 100 most cacophonies cherished.
5:11 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
The 9th Finals
I could hardly look back and feel how amazing things have been. I am referring to this day, the most memorable of all. In less that 40 minutes since I left home as early as 6:00am, I found myself studying at one corner of the college caf. I am not a geek or any, excuse me, I was just preparing for my final 3 judgment hours in no more than 10 hours today. Gee, I am already playing with numbers. Anyway, first of, I continued browsing my theo notes from last night's one-hell-of-pure-memorization exercise. Oops, it was Toni's notes pala.
Grabe, I can't really describe it. The exam's comprehensive so I almost memorized around 50+ terminologies on Human sexuality, Marriage and Family life. I was expecting an objective type of exam, meaning identification, enumeration... etc., but no! Imagine, the exam, although objective, was matching type! Oh well, up to now, I can't say if it's really frustrating or not. I am just thankful that it didn't give me headache although the true/false part has used up some of my braincells. Next up, history.
Although not comprehensive, I devoted my 2 days (out of the 3-day grant) going over my notes (and so niki's handout) and the long history readings summing up to 1-inch thickness. Again, I expected an identification type, but unfortunately a modified true/false appeared. By the time I submitted my answers, I guess, my braincells were greatly reduced to 50%. Do you think it would be sustainable to end this day with a comprehensive math exam? I don't really think so.
I was left with half an hour to refresh my halved memory on euler's algorithm, newton's method of solving diffy ques, same with the undetermined coefficients and variation of parameters... etc. The good thing was, I didn't panic. Not at that very moment, maybe right after. I sat in front of SECA208A for 2 hours, writing and solving equations. Instead of having a severe headache, I had a trembling right hand. Imagine, I started this day writing long essays since 9:30, nonstopping and super exaggerated.
Anyway, enough of the rants.
This one-hell-of-an-incredible day was a blast. At last! The moment that I have been waiting for has come into play! Yey, one more to go... mamilosopiya na!
11:59 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Gratis
Today's free. I had no scheduled final exam although I proctored a ma12 exam. Toni and I had a lunch date at Jollibee and it was free of charge. No, it wasn't her treat. It was Sir Durwin's little token of appreciation for my effort in being with his students during the final exam. Two hundred bucks for a luncheon meal? Nah, it has been ambitiously real. I ate a chicken joy meal, with extra rice and a large iced tea, plus a regular yum meal with large fries and another large iced tea and a chocolate sundae desert. Damn, it was really unbelievable. My tummy shouldn't really be underestimated. On my way home, I photocopied Toni's theo notes, and again, it was for free. No, again, it's not her treat. It's Erick's. Of course... Haha.
During sunset, Niki and I studied at Mocha Blends Berkeley. I ordered Mocha frost but it wasn't free of charge. I paid for it although I had a free ride home, courtesy of Niki.
Gratis, as anyone would say. What a nice way to meet Ms. One-day-three-compre-final-exam day tomorrow. I'd better start browsing Toni's notes. G'nyt!
9:37 PM
Monday, March 20, 2006
One-time Big-time
I found myself staring at the wall for minutes after going over the long history readings. Imagine, I almost got a stiffneck. I needed a break so here I am, checking my emails and updating this blog. I never wished to rant about how weird my finals week is gonna be, but for the sake of taking note how memorable it will be, as always, I will write about it.
Last year's finals week was a disaster. I had an influenza and I never had the chance to study and prepare for accounting, linear algebra, and another one I forgot final exams. That was so hell-ly and disastrous for me, but on a side note, it's really fun that I've had a rare experience like that.
This time, despite my good shape, is not really different. I am having all of my written exams in one day, in which 2 are comprehensive! And I am just given 3 damned days to prepare. Goodluck nalang... grabe, I don't know if I should be happy since it's one-time big-time and there are a lot of readings and things to memorize! Differential equations pa naman ang isa...
I wonder why finals week seems so kind and generous to me.
12:09 AM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
You are Beautiful
I was busy cramming for my report when suddenly, my cousin gave me a buzz. She invited me to visit their exhibit at the Rizal Library. Luckily, the next day, I had to meet an errand at the Filipiniana Section, which was actually near the exhibit area, so I was able to pay a visit and it was really fun.
To my astonishment, I saw a lot of digitally-made artworks (err, I don't know if that's how they call it). In fact, the exhibit was extraordinarily amazing. And among those cool stuff that they have shown like the 1000journals, what caught my attention was the YouAreBeautiful part.
Parang masaya at masarap sa pakiramdam. It's not because I was the one being referred to, ahem excuse me, but it was the optimism that it serves everyone who was able to read it. It seems really fun being an advocate of encouraging and empowering people. Of course, at the same time, making them happy, in a way. AHEM.
Upon leaving the library, I suddenly remembered my philo classes. Argh, I will miss philo!
Actually, this is my second entry for the day. Isn't it obvious how deprived I was for the past weeks? Thank God, I only have the final exams left. Soon, I will be free again! Summerfun here I come!
5:04 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
Back to the Future
About me...
This week has been a log-jam experience. Everything seemed calm at first but eventually, I ended up realizing how disastrously fast has it been. Now, I am back with so many things that have changed. And I don't want to bring it back, not anymore, nor do I want to think of a single piece of it.
And you...
Forgive me if I couldn't look back and adapt to your surrounding. There are just so many things I wish to preserve, I wish to remember. I may be caught in between those extremities, don't worry; it's just my little way of exhibiting the pits in me.
I just wish to bring you back to the future.
The Plot
It has finally begun.
The crucial-most month for all Ateneans is currently being celebrated in coffee shops, in front of each one’s desktop computer, laptop, and other gadgets including cellular phones. Yes, communication is playing a big part in their lives. Whining here, ranting there. Everybody's tired and nauseous of papers, exams, reports and all sorts. But one may never know that the utmost shortcoming this month is love. How ironic, after the heart's day and fete everywhere comes the opposite.
Anyway, March is the fire prevention month since everyone's fiery.
And I made it.
I blew it off, yes. Instead of finishing my Theo paper, here I am, composing a new entry for no apparent reason. All I am aware of is this unidentifiable sadness that has engulfed and is currently engulfing me.
And I was wrong.
There were so many things that I never thought that I would never know. Everything seemed really farfetched at first but as I choose to swim deeper and longer, the more I loom into the surface. Life's really ironic and I find it really silly and annoying yet so much interesting.
And it's still the same.
Divulging this simple cacophonous life continues to serve its purpose but no one seems to live by it. But on the verge of all these, I wish to sail back and hopefully, there is no turning back.
Should I come into conclusion? I don't know. I just have to let go for the meantime. AHEM! ♣
5:10 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
