Pilosopiya: Isang Pagbabalik-tanaw
Ang sarap talaga ng bakasyon.
But one thing I have noticed, eventhough we're at home, bumming around, stress still exist. Argh. I can't really help it, kelangan pa ring mag-isip. Pwede kayang tumigil ang taong mag-isip, at magliwaliw nalang? Tsk tsk. I guess if Mr. Tolentino's gonna read this statement from me, I'm sure he'll fail me in our Philo Class.
Reminiscing our Philo days:
Ang tao ay nagmemeron. Ang tao ay tanong. Hindi mo maaaring itanong kung ano ang meron kundi itanong mo kung ano ang wala. Dahil ang lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay nagmemeron. Kahit alikabok ay nagmemeron. Naging alikabok pa siya kung wala lang. Ispesyal ang tao, ang tao, maaaring hindi magmeron. Ang patuloy niyang pag-iisip ang bunga ng kanyang pagmemeron. At sa pamamagitan ng pagbigkas, pagsasalita, patuloy na pag-iisip, tayo ay kumakagat sa meron. Ngunit maaari tayong kumawala sa ating pagkakakagat kung papahintulutan nating ang ibang pwersa na manghimasok sa ating kaisipan. Kung tayo ay maglalasing, tiyak na tayo ay magwawawala. Kung magiging sarado tayo at uunahin ang puso, aba, tiyak na tayo ay magwawala. Tulad ng mga baby, dahil ang isip nila ay nakatuon sa gatas, kapag hindi mo sila pinakain, tiyak, iiyak sila. Magwawawala. Hahagulgol. Ang tao, kadalasan, ay nasa sangandaan. Hindi nito mawari kung ano sa pipiliin ang pagpapasyahang piliin. Naiipit tayo sa alangin kaya kung minsan, tuwing sa may pinipili tayo, pakiramdam natin nawawala na tayo sa tamang landasin. Tinatanong natin kadalasan sa ating mga sarili, sino ba ako? At kung kaya't karamihan sa atin ay hinahanap ang sarili, hanggang sa ibang bansa. Ngunit kung pagmumunihan, tumingin ka sa salamin, makikita mo ang iyong sarili. Maaaring makilala mong maganda ka, o kaya gwapo, mabait, maamo... etc. Ngunit nasabi mo na ba ang lahat tungkol sa iyo. HINDI. Maaari ka lang magbigay ng mga konsepto tungkol sa iyo na siyang may hangganan at nilalaman. Dahil nga sa tayo ay nagmemeron, at tayo ay tanong, hindi natin maaaring malaman ang lahat lahat sa atin, dahil MERON. MERON. HINDI WALA. Whew, nasabi ko na ang lahat ng aking masasabi ngunit ang pinakamahalaga ay hindi masabi, magagawa lamang. Ito ang techne ng buhay-tao.
Oh my. I can't believe that I was able to say all those. I've thrown everything about philo, when I took it last sem. Pero whoala! I still have them with me. Oh well, it was one of the best courses I have taken. Sometimes, I ask myself of its purpose, and I just tell myself: Malalaman mo rin. Wahaha.
Currently, I am chatting with my cousin and Sheryl. It was such a nice talk before I leave Manila. Thanks to them. =)
I have to take a bath na! Puerto here we come! Este G4 palang pala.
8:07 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
A One-Minute Day
A One-Minute Day. Weird. I can’t really grasp the entirety of the things that happened today. I love this day. So many new things happened. I went to shop alone at SM North. I kinda knew the feeling of being caught in the middle of your choices. Whew, but actually I was only able to buy shades. I accompanied my mom and sister to the salon, and got my hair treated. Haha, I was just a chaperon then but it seemed to be like I got the full blast. Well anyway, I haven’t had enough sleep since last night. I guess, if I saw the clock correctly, I have only slept 3 hours. Now, I am pretty excited for the ultimate block outing at Puerto Galera, but to tell you, I am really exhausted and tired. Really. Might as well, I should go to sleep na. Oh one more thing, I really hate packing things for an out-of-town trip. It extracts my sanity. Yikes!
8:25 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
Dream
Since I was so tired last night, I slept rightaway.
And I guess, it was the best sleep I had. No dreams etc.
But no! When I suddenly woke up, I went back to sleep.
Then I had a terrible dream, which I don’t know if I should take it seriously.
Anyway, here it goes. I was with friends in a feast (I presume this is right!). Then there’s this scrumptious barbeque. The weird thing is, it was not in a wooden stick but on a hard wire (Sorry I don’t know how to call it). Then when I have eaten one, I suddenly swallowed the stick, no, the wire. Yeah. I didn’t react that time but only when I have swallowed another one. Yes, I didn’t notice that I have swallowed it but only after feeling it in my tummy. Haha, weird talaga. I even told the person in my dream: “Hala, Nalunok ko yung wire sa BBQ!” During that time, I have thought of the surgerical operation they’re going to do with my stomach, I have thought of the pain if ever these hard wires went to my intestines. SHET talaga, then I finally woke up. Freezing. Oh well, at least I am not going to the hospital though.
The lesson is, never get back to sleep.
C’est La Vie
My first semester was so erratic. It’s either I get a very high grade such as a perfect score, or I get a flunking mark. Super inconsistent. But the good thing is, I was able to avoid the risk of getting a big fat F! I guess this is what life is trying to teach me. On how am I going to deal with such challenges. On how I can get up when I went down. On how would I be able to bring back what’s lost. Etcetera. I really hope that this sem’s going to be the helliest of them all. Of course, there’s no sem like heaven. God is with us!
8:27 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Sunday Mania
It’s Sunday once again. One week after the finals week, 3 days after my official break. Whew.
Yesterday, I went to the ASLA Batch 3 reunion and Batch 4’s graduation. Oh well, it was fun seeing everyone because there were some of my batch mates whom I haven’t seen for a long time. JB and I left early after Father Ben’s talk and after signing all their envelopes. Haha, I messed on their envelopes. Law took us out of Ateneo up to the LRT station. We waited for the train to arrive that is for 8 minutes. Then, I got off at Gateway and bought my favorite bond paper. I looked at my watch and Whoala?! Its 30 minutes left before PBB!
Haha. Obviously, I am an avid viewer of PBB. Of course, there were some who dislike it but I don’t know. I was deprived of seeing my favorite shows on TV and now that it’s sembreak, I am making the most of it. Iyon nga lang, PBB. Haha. I arrived home with 30 seconds before the final tally of the votes. Haha. Then the next things happen as it is, yes, finally, Chx was evicted.
Oh well. That’s all folks.
This is how my break goes aside from eating, and of course, sleeping.
Sembreak Na!
It's the most awaited semestral break!
Yehey!
It has been a tiring semester. Yes, the most nerve-wrecking semester I have had, and hopefully, it would be the last. Oh well, what can I say? There were lots of sleepless nights. I had a problem with my wisdom tooth. Argh, I took the exams with my teeth aching. WTF! Marami pa... sobrang, I can never forget what happened.
I have gone to BF, and had my hair fixed. It has just given me my new name, sharky. Thanks to Block W and WW. Whew... tears of joy?
I can't say a word. We have waited so long until the last day of the finals week. I remember when winningwoes laughed on us when we were planning our Puerto outing during the first week of classes.
Nobody can narrate the experience of having Financial management, Statistics, Numerical Analysis (and in my case, international economics) in a semester. Shet talaga. Oh well.
Thank God, I got a B+ in Sci10 and Ec122 (Int'l Eco). Shux, I didn't actually expect that pero I won't question it kasi kung hindi, baka wala na ako sa school. Sobrang hirap! Oh no!
Right now, i make the most of my sembreak. Sleep sleep sleep. And im so excited for our ultimate outing. Yes! In a week, Puerto! Here we come! Haha. I can't say a word. Kahit sobrang hirap, I truly cherish this semester. Whew...
8:26 PM
Friday, October 21, 2005
