Maldyta’s Blogdrive
I was so busy that time when suddenly, a friend buzzed me and said, “Take a look at Maldyta’s blog” (Of course, I will be translating everything in English). I asked for the URL and I found the blogdrive.
The first time I saw it, I was shocked. I saw basketball players I never knew although I can recognize their team (Detroit Pistons). Actually, there’s nothing that I should be shocked of since she’s fond of basketball as a sport, except for the message in the text box. It says there (sort of) “Tibo ka ba?” I laughed thinking of whoever kulto is (the name registered). That was off but not for my friend, and I am very sure of it. All I can conclude is that, Kulto’s a guy and he has an HD with my friend. Kaso luma na ang tactic n’ya, masyado nang gasgas.
The second time another friend (or the same friend) buzzed, it was also the second time I was shocked of the same URL. I saw a very girl-pinkish-page. I don’t know if it has something to do with kulto but that’s not actually the thing that I want to talk of. It was the latest entry that caught my attention. It contains the sentiments she had for the days that her world was really unstable, shaky and antagonizing. She has described her angst against our friends. She mentioned about the signs that she’s already irritated with people: When she’s already in deep silence. After reading it, it never went out of my mind. Whenever she’s silent, I feel so uneasy and guilty that I might have upset her. Ha-ha, I’m so paranoid.
In relation to her statement, I just want to share my experience. I have discovered that (kahit minsan lang ako mapikon) when I began using the English language out of the blue (kahit parang ewan na ako), it’s my way of expressing my angst against to whomever I am talking to. Take note, to whoever that person is. Wahaha… weird.
But this doesn’t mean that I am irritated whenever I compose my blogs.
8:13 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Passion
One questioned me “Why do you have to do that if they will just ignore it. Everything will just end up at the garbage can. Its nonsense and waste of time, money and effort. (Implied impracticality)”
I philosophized and answered, “Because I like doing it. It runs through my blood vessel: the passion to believe and will to happen. You may sound logical and sincere but you can never understand my situation. I want to do a lot of things; I want to experience a lot of things even though it’s the poorest thing to do. It’s my way of exploring all possibilities of achieving the cause that I dreamt to happen. I believe that we have the will to make things happen for us. As the saying goes in “Finding Neverland,” “You’ll just have to believe” and do your part. Philosophizing these thoughts led me to the concept of horizons and experience. We have our own horizons, we are limited, that is why I should understand you and honestly, I definitely understand you. We have our own pieces of experiences. We have our own puzzles of life. I appreciate the concern and I hope that there will be some times that we’d be able to experience other’s experiences, our very own experiences.
I may be vague with my statements, but you have to understand and keep an open mind.
