A Fortuitous One
I can hardly believe it. It seems to me that everyday is no longer the "another day" that I used to have before. I wake up and wake up and wake up with the same things, same fear, same dull day. I am just so sick of it. My everyday has nonetheless became routinary.
I rise up, brush my teeth, catch traffic jam along katipunan, arrive late at my first class, eat breakfast, yawn a lot during math and theo, feel drowsy during my long lunch break, die with the-weird-rainy-season heat wave, and go home late at night after all the meetings. This is, unfortunately, my MWF habit.
Although I don't have class during TTH, the same scenario arises. I wake up a little bit later than my MWF waking hours, hope for the day to end, and start looking forward for the hell next day.
Weekend comes with Finance saturday and lazy sunday. Then, comes again the nerve-wracking school weekdays.
The same day comes the same week until I realize that it's the same year. And I want to bring back the good days, if this will hold true for eternity.
4:00 PM
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Silly Brat
I woke up late today and so confused if I should go to school or not. And it was already too late for me to realize how regretful I was in dragging myself all the way to school and in making myself starve to death. Yup, I always forget about eating whenever I'm swamped with a lot of things. To think that I didn't have class today, yeah, the pressure was so intense. Realizing these, I've thought of giving myself a consolation. I decided to drop by Chowking, near UP, and eat my not-so-favorite Beef Wanton and Siopao.
At first, I was too hesitant dining in since chinese/korean/japanese/thai/mongolian food disgusts my poor stomach. I had bad experiences with those asian restaurants that I do not wish to name, for their sake. But I still dined in, anyway that's the point. It was not so soon when I realized that I ordered the wrong siopao, my most-hated Bola-bola, and that the beef wanton noodles looked poorly. Guess what? I was enlightened na walang masama sa taong gutom. I was really satisfied with what I ate, knowing that I didn't spend much during the day so parang bumawi lang ako.
Okay na sana, i.e. nirvana na sana, but one incident spoiled things out.
I was almost done eating. In fact, I was on my way to my final bite when the guard approached me and said, "Sir, pwede naman pong magpaa, pakibaba po." I wondered what the hell is he saying, only to find out that he was pointing to my right foot on top of the chair next to me, on my left. It was the first time for my attention to be called just because of that. I know that it was really unethical but who cares? I was having fun eating, alone (take note) and how dare he to interupt me. Besides, I'm sure naman that my foot is clean. Anyway, I didn't bother to remove it and it made me realize how bratty I was.
Huwag niyo akong tutularan. Masama ang ginawa ko, for your information. But let me just clear things out, I was never mad at the guard. In fact, I nodded with him politely when he approached me.
I left the fast food chain and muntik na ako maiipit kasi binitawan na pala ng guard ang pinto. Of course, hindi niya sinasadya. =P
8:55 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Compunction
This bests describe the feeling that a friend of mine is experiencing right now. I am no friend to her, since I got her caught in that situation. And now, I am feeling the same. Should we really be the ones experiencing this? Haha, don't mind this entry. T'is a crap! =)
9:04 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Ambivalence
I got this title from our philo reading (due tomorrow, oral exam!) and I still don't know what the hell it means although I have haunches, you know. All I'm sure of is that I am experiencing the same phenomena, although it is not really in the religious aspect. Gee, I am pretty excited 'till our graduation day. Oops, that's too advance. Let's just say that I am so excited for this freakingly-raising-hell semester come to an end. But amidst these excitements are needles killing me day by day. Yeahhh, needles pinned all over my body and soul. LABO!
I missed my AEGIS photoshoot sign up, just had our financial eco exam, and still got three major exams coming. =(
It may be too tiring for all of us, seniors, but let's all think of Elijah! Gumising ka, Elijah! Haha.
8:42 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Time's Up
We've just had our Advanced Calculus/Intro to Real Analysis second exam. I studied diligently but I don't think it's enough. Imagine, I made the most out of my days memorizing and understanding all the theorems and proofs, but it really doesn't seem to make a difference from our previous exam. But it's okay, maybe it has served its purpose or I guess, it's all what I deserve at the moment.
By the way, I welc
9:24 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Feared Week Ahead
The worst one is coming. It would definitely raise hell to all of us. I just hope that this one would pass by at an instant. And I pray that this wouldn't be as painful as it's expected to be. Anyway, it would result to a long, hopefully peaceful, weekend, thank God.
Still, I really hope that this week's going to be over. Oops, I made a mistake, it has already started.
10:51 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Unwanted Presence
How come I will be seeing you more often? Darn, why do you keep on coming back? I hate it when you invite your colleagues with you. You antagonizes everything. Why just now? But despite all the trouble you've caused me, I still thank you for being the way you really are. It's just that I couldn't bear it anymore. =(
10:58 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Untitled
He is one of those who were never there, always lost and busy with silly and nonsense things whenever things go wrong. Coz he only enjoys hyping things up, which in turn always makes him realize how he's been hurting himself. Or maybe it's his other way of searching for his light in darkness. He rarely sees a flicker and this makes him vulnerable in stumbling with everybody else, as if he's sharing his darkness. Who knows, maybe one day he'll bump on with someone who could share the light that he's been looking for all this time.
11:30 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Dazed Over the Week
I have just experienced a one hell of a rollercoaster ride although there were just a few ups and mostly we're deadly downs. It was really exciting climbing up the railway, but scary descending it as I have ran out of breath. It was really unexplainable. I almost burst into tears realizing that it was an inevitable trip. Currently, numbness is all that I could feel. Dazed, or rather, shocked.
I wish that we could spend sometime together, longer and so much better after everything comes to an end. For now, I'll just drop by once in a while and see how everybody's doing. Thanks to those who cared enough, at the least moment I expected it.
11:42 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
