Aujourd'hui: Mecredi, vignt-cinq Mai
I had a terrible day.
I slept very late last night, around 2AM i guess, an spent reviewing for my probability final long test. Then, I woke up around 5:30, wow 3.5-hour sleep, to prepare for school. From then on, I was not feeling well. By 7:30, I arrived at the Rizal Library, again, browsing my notes, sample long tests, sort of cramming each moment as time approaches 9:30. I took the test like a zombie. Basta, I can't explain. In the midst of the exam, I started to feel an intense headache. I don't know if it's because of the exam. Well, probably, I was pressured. The test was over and I had a fever.
We ate at caf and left for Mocha Blends, where the Sipnayan meeting was held. I was so drowsy, tired and feeling so hot. Then it rained. I went home with a 40-degree fever. I slept and forgot to take med. I woke up around 8, took some medications, and went back to sleep. Tada! When I woke up for American Idol, I was already feeling well, sana. And now, checking emails. Whew.
One thing I have learned, never sleep too late and wake up so early. It will kill you.
Oh well, it was really a long terrible day.
7:32 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Saturday, Lib Day
I woke up by 7:15 but went back to sleep.
I left my bed by 9:24 and prepare for school.
I left home by 10:30 and got to school by 11:00.
Ate 1-pc-chicken-joy-lunch-plus-an-extra-rice-and-large-coke meal.
Met Can-you-win along the way and chatted under the heat of the sun.
Hurried to the lib by 12:00 and surprised by the presence of Gurl at the bound periodicals section. Rushed to the Filipiniana section, to hide from her but in less that a minute, approached her and sat beside her.
Studied History notes for 2 hours.
Read Hiroshima for 2 hours.
And still reading Holocaust for 3 hours now and still got 20 pages to go.
Went to the lib to use the electronic media but the university server went down.
I chanced myself towards the shelves and thankful to find some good references.
Twenty minutes before the library closed, the server was on.
In a spur-of-the-moment, I have taken the opportunity of using the electronic media, might as well pursue my initial purpose.
I have saved enough articles and information in pdf format.
We left the lib and bought spaghetti meal from jollibee and stayed at mocha blends for 4 more hours reading Holocaust.
But again, I am not yet through with it. Whew…
Now, I got home and found out that I don’t have adobe reader. Yikes.
7:36 PM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
In Good Company; Bye Baby V.
I was shocked after witnessing this unpredictable movie. First, it talked about father-daughter relationship. Second, it talked about work ethics. Third, it went to family ties. Then, there was synergy. Afterwards, it dealt with preserving morality and values, and abiding by your principles and beliefs. Etcetera etcetera. Yikes and later on, after the circle of life turn upside down, weird ending. And it bugged me. Good movie though, I was mentally challenged. And up to now, it still haunts me. I went straight home for my 4th Gateway and watched how John Lloyd bullied Jasmine until I fell asleep and then woke up when Vonzell was eliminated. I wonder why singers sing at their best when they get eliminated, it has been prevalent through the years. Anyway, I am looking forward to next week’s episode. I excited for Bo and Carrie. This season’s American Idol is going to be really though and dramatic. They are all good but if Mario didn’t leave, I don’t know what’s going to happen. My heart just started to beat fast… took took took took toooookk…… Gnyt!
7:43 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
Friday: The Last Day
I only had one class today, that is, Probability.
We have talked about the three distributions that involved Bernoulli trials: Binomial, Poisson, and Geometric Distributions. And at the latter part, we have talked about the Gamma Distribution derived from the so-called Gamma function. And today, I have realized that the probability of enjoying the summer class can no longer be associated with these special distributions nor to any type that you currently have in mind, for summer time is over, summer classes is over, and the probability of fun and enjoyment is zero.
Actually, I can’t wait for next Wednesday, the last day of the final exam. I still have Saturday up to Tuesday to stay in the library and engross myself to my Mathematical Statistics book. Yikes.
Anyway, it has been a long time since I have updated my blog. Yeah, I had been busy studying Macroeconomics, as if… whew. But the things is, I have just taken the final exam a while ago. I only had one class and I spent the rest of the day in the library upgrading my brain with all the economic models: Keynesian Cross, Classical, Mundell-Fleming, and IS-LM. And I am grateful to still have it in my consciousness even though I had myself crippled in the exam. Wrong diction please? Oh well, things didn’t go my way.
“Christian, you’ve made it complicated.” – I just blame myself for not believing in my instinct, for letting others deceive me. I have wasted my time figuring out what went wrong when there is none hopefully. But I still got the big smile on my face whatever happened, it sucked but it was really cool. Thanks to the eco major for relieving the stress I have had.
Tomorrow, I will be in the library again, as always. Init kasi eh.
Restless, Friday the 13th
Gee... I was not able to update my blog this Helly week. Always sleepy in class. Got a 5/10 quiz. Saw the evil creature everyday. I was almost late for my first class. I became depressed. Not productive. Probability exam was tough, and I just hope to pass. Increased spending rate, paid a lot of things. Got a new pimple. Bitten by a red ant and it hurt so bad till now. Crammed a paper and didn't meet the expectation. Restless. Now, I'm sleepy. Super dooper. Don't really have good and logical things in mind to write about. Really exhausted this week. Tom, I have to be in school coz I have to: To study, Yikes. Gnyt anyway.
7:44 PM
Friday, May 13, 2005
Time Check: 2:30AM, Monday
I'm killing myself. Whew...
For the first time that I have stayed so late until this hour, still making my history paper. Well, again, my fault, cramming it. I can't blame myself for I have tried to do it as early as possible but it's the power cram talaga that squeezes my very best. Ang Labo ko! I'm drowsy na! Gnyt! Still have eco tomorrow morning...
7:44 PM
Sunday, May 08, 2005
A Confession Regarding Joanna's Birthday
I just want to have a confession in response to one of my friends' testimonial. You are not obliged to read this anyway. Just want to make things clear after how many years of hiding it (sort of hiding it but not really).
I can still remember the time when this lower batch girl friend of my barkada celebrated her birthday with us. She gave us a birthday treat at Kenny. How nice of her to treat some oldie batch friends who were graduating and whom she will rarely see afterwards. And we have thanked her for that. Haha...
After we ate, they had their group pic taken and I still have it in my possession (Kinda redundant!). I was really supposed to be with them and nobody knew where I had been. I went to the comfort room and when I was about to return, an old friend texted me and told me he's within the vicinity. I met him in universe something, located near the cinema house (Huh?) and saw him taking his meal. Hmm.. we talked realizing that I have missed the photo-shoot. Well, there was it. I was regretful whenever I see their pic which was supposed to be our pic.
The incident is what you the result of the trade-off. I gave up one thing for the other which in the end, you will feel some what regretful though.
I have composed this blog just to erase the reason I gave them before that I went to the comfy room to gain success. Weird. =)
7:47 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Finding Neverland
Today is one of the most memorable, funniest and (can't think of a better word) day that I have had for my 6600+ days here on this planet.
First, for the first time, we've had our first free-cut on my first class: Macroeconomics (Don't condemn me for saying it). I can't say that I became free of boredom but in some sense, it didn't do anything good to me. Why? Coz I became lazy in some way. I slept early and woke up late. Then I went to school around 8:00AM to do my homework in Math which has turned into a disaster when we're all cramming in parasiting everybody. The good thing is I have finished it but the bad news, it wasn't to be passed pala. So I wasted my time that I should have devoted studying for my Macroeconomics Midterms. And that's the second thing.
About my midterms, I have messed up. I didn't have the chance to maximize my time in studying the 8-chapter coverage, reading 2-30+ pages of articles and browsing the 40-page handouts. Oh well, it was a super dooper info overload. With all the graphs (models), equations, derivations, and definitions, it was a (I can't say a word that would describe my feeling). How cruel it was to be 60 points that would make up the 40% of your final grade. Come on, go ahead and compute. A single mistake would pull you down so easily. And good luck to me. How would our teacher feel after seeing the trauma drawn on our faces when the test was over? Are teachers happy when their students find the exam difficult? It depends, I guess. But still, eventhough it was a harakiri, I had fun. =)
Lastly, after the recession I have experienced after the midterms, my blockmates and I went to gate way to see a movie: Finding Neverland. I would just like to thank them for removing the gloomy face I had. Thanks to Patty, Toni and Rach. I had fun. After the Wendy's crew with a 1-minute reaction time and the movie "Bantay," (I dunno how they're called) well, I really had a perfect moment. One thing I cannot forget: "You'll just have to believe."
Then I went home with a weird smile on my face. Reminiscing about the moments I have had with my friends, on how this day became one of the most memorable.
Now... making a blog. It's really fun talking to myself. Schizophrenic... yikes.
7:49 PM
Friday, May 06, 2005
Weird
If there is one characteristic that I look forward to in anything, can be a person or a thing, that is its or their weirdness. For one, maybe I find myself weird and so I look for the same. Two, I dunno, I find it funny and relaxing. (But hey nons, I am not talking about "weeiirrrdd" so don't get upset, ok?) Three, they're actually cool yet people just ignore them, so I like them. Weirrrddd! Haha.
Teachers' Exams Reloaded
"The teachers aren't happy when students find their exams difficult." - KKC
But if you were to ask me, I would be happy, very happy. At least I have given them the challenge that they deserve. It is but just the grade that is making them feel bad coz after all, the students will suddenly realize that they had fun. Although exams are difficult, while answering it, I was actually having fun. Weird of me.
My apology in advance to those who think of the opposite.
Wednesday, May 04
Today, I woke up with my eyes closed.
Then I went to school, eyes and both hands on my notebook.
Well, yes, it was obvious that I have an exam, or rather exams, today.
A quiz, and a midterm exam. How cruel.
But who am I to blame but myself according to my mentor who made me realize that it's my fault. This was just caused by the trade-off. No free lunch.
I scanned my notes, my books, and my readings… even my celfone, which has never received anything since yesterday morning, hoping that a message would pop up. It was a harrassful and burning day, composed of a melancholy ante meridiem and a joyous post meridiem.
As I have talked about the revolt we were planning to make on my previous blog, it’s over. We have revolted once and never again. We are tired of expressing our sentiments and now, we are in a civil state. I got that from Nons, my block mate who has been so good in acting civil, if I may use the word correctly. Well, yeah, we can’t do anything about it. We are tired of talking about our principles in fighting against evil. We don’t want to expound on the situation because we are just tired of it. It’s just the “presence” that makes our lives suck. Oh well, we can’t do anything about it. All we could do is just go on with it and ignore what has to be ignored.
Making an elaboration will make things complicated and miserable for us. So the key to this matter is a moment of silence. The only weapon that we have is to act civil.
I went home, with pricked things on my face. And it still hurts. =)
7:50 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
ElitismI should have had written this blog last week but due to excessive workloads, I failed. But thankfully, in the midst of my reflection, it hurriedly rushed (kinda redundant) into by conscious mind.
I was reminded of our conversation. My friend and I debated on the Political issues of our country that led to the Economy, then corruption, and finally, to the masses. We debated on his being a communist and mine, being an elitist (According to him). I dunno, I was deceived of the misconception about elites. I thought they're like capitalists, evil in nature. Well, to dumb of me coz when I have searched for it in the dictionary, it says:
Elitism is a belief or attitude that an elite— a selected group of persons whose personal abilities, specialized training or other attributes place them at the top of any field (see below)— are the people whose views on a matter are to be taken most seriously, or who are alone fit to govern. Thus elitism sees an elite as occupying a special position of authority or privilege in a group, set apart from the majority of people who do not match up with their abilities or attributes. Thus this selected elite is treated with favoritism. Members of an inherited elite are aristocrats.
A highly intellectual person?! WooOoow. Still, I can hardly believe that.
They could be bad. Like everybody.
WE ended up in a conclusion that we are just being raised by our schools in a very different manner, and just the way it is. Who's to blame? Our schools?
7:50 PM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Why would I? I'm the freaking Xianxu!
Oh... about the word "Freak" that I've been fond of using in my previous blogs, it just have reminded me of the dumbest person I know:
Q: "Are you insecured?"
A: "Why would I? I'm the FREEAAKKINN Regine Velasquez."
Yeah... She's no other than the monkey girl that has corrupted her entire being. Pity on her.
(Red, divulging my angst)
7:55 PM
Monday, May 02, 2005
