Malabo
Several times did I ask myself if I should be regretful or not, for so many things that I do not intend to look back. It was as if I was caught in between so many thoughts that somehow have manipulated me for so long or that is currently manipulating me. Even at this very moment of siesta hour in the office, where all I could do is either continue my project or continue my project, still I feel like I am getting too far yet so near. The former would definitely make things easier and faster but the latter would make things better but longer. Damn, as I always tell myself, I am getting nuts with these crazy stuff.
Life is different inside the Union Bank Plaza. It was really far different from what I used to be into, the ateneo campus. I've got limited friends, more silent times, less happy moments. But seriously, I am just so thankful that I was able to deviate from my "normal" life in school. I'm growing, as my officemates would always say.
The only hard thing was, I never realized that it was not going to be that easy. I thought that this summer is going to be less hassle for me since there are only two courses that I'll be worrying about and take note that these courses don't have exams, quizzes, etc. Just requirements that are actually the ones making my life worse along with my extracurricular works. Yeah, workssss.
(Haha, I am not whining. I am just making a deep reflection about life and here ye't is!)
With all the sudden pressure that I am experiencing, I begin to realize things which are not concerned with the present but of the future. The what if's of an adult Christian Robert C. Canlas. I know that I have already thought of these things back then but right now, it's different. It's more serious, really serious.
I guess the best way to put it is through a fire alarm. Imagine yourself being trapped in a building caught on fire and all you could hear are the burning walls, exploding computers and other electronics, and the sound of a really panic"-able" fire alarm and at any second, you will die out of suffocation. Gee, that's too advance and harsh. I don't know, paranoid lang siguro ako.
Anyway, pagod lang siguro ito. Tomorrow's our graduation but I am not excited since I will be delivering a speech (damn), I will have to extend until next week to finish my paper on bonds and I will have to wait for another two weeks to receive our below-the-minimum allowance. Now, I am ranting.
Ciao ciao. Need to get back to work.
2:00 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
