Last Saturday, Blue Christmas was held at the Bellarmine Field and for the second time around, I joined the Storytelling presentation of ENTABLADO. But this time, it wasn’t as relaxing and easy as before, rather it’s really challenging and embarrassing for me. Haha, as traumatic as it has been, I portrayed the role of a soldier for the story “Ang Mahiwagang Biyolin.” It is not that the role was tough, since in fact all I had to do was to arrest one of the characters and that’s it, but it’s because I felt so uneasy with it. Nalaman ko lang na may natitira pa palang hiya sa akin. Tsk tsk. Tapos I was late pa for the rehearsal that day, yikes, sobrang kinailangan ko talaga ng motivation. Thanks to Kate who never stopped encouraging me, pero nahihiya talaga akong sobra sa kanila. In the end, ewan ko ba, parang wala lang nangyari. Happy naman ako, at least I was able to meet new friends, those who were in the pics. I’ve just realized how ENTA has evolved for the past how many years of my stay.

Meow! Meow! Meow!

It has been three years now since I have rushed through the ENTA room, popularly known as the Enta Hacienda. But it no longer exists, since Colayco Hall was demolished. I can never forget how I begged Tita Jetti just to accept me for the NSTP class since I failed to join my block because of the stupid guidance test that time.

I can’t really imagine how he was able to accept me. I was too late for the audition, too late for the application, too late for the interview. Was it because I got a 1X1 photo ready when I filled out the application on the spot or talagang nakakaawa lang ako that time? Whatever that is, I really thank him for believing in me. Labo!

Ironically, I knew a lot of ENTAdirs (this is how we call the ENTA members) when I was a new applicant during my freshman year but now that I’m a junior, I can hardly recognize each one. Siguro, mga ka-batch ko nalang ang kilala ko plus the higher batch men. Oh well, I guess, this only reflects how inactive I have been for the past three years. The challenge for me is to bring back my dynamic ENTA residence. That is only if I was not kicked out yet, though I am not really sure.

ENTABLADO is the experimental theatre org of the Ateneo. As the name implies, it requires passion and dedication. But why did I keep on renewing my membership even if I knew then that I can’t spare a lot of time for the org?

Honestly, I still have to find that out. It’s such that whenever it’s Recruitment Week, I never failed to miss ENTA in my choice of orgs. Right now, I am a member of five organizations, officer on two but I am neither happy nor proud of it since ENTA was one the two other orgs that I am inactive with. Let’s just say my love for theatre still exists although in a dormant stage. Haha, funny as it seems but yes, I dreamt to be a main stage actor. But I guess it will take the whole universe to conspire just to bestow me such motivation and make it happen. Not now, I believe. One thing I am sure of: I will never stop becoming a part of ENTA kahit isuka pa ako nang ilang beses. Haha.

Bilib talaga ako, Sobra.