Mon Bestie, aujourd'hui!
Mon Bestie et je suis sorti aujourd'hui. Nous avons depense faisant le travail de charite de 8H-12H. Nous avons mange a Tokyo Tokyo. Nous avons agi furtivement, parle et ri des gens. Nous sommes alles a son endroit, alors a leur nouvelle maison et nous avons rentre et avons mange le diner. Alors notre JC d'ami est venu et ils m'ont donne un dos de tour libre a la maison. J'ai fait mon jour avec juste trente pesos sous la main.
C'etait ma deuxieme date avec elle et c'etait gratis.
Merci, Bestie! J'aime!
7:55 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Conyo Froot
Here is the most recent embarrassing moment for you.
It was a week now since it happened. And I have waited this long at least to commemorate that shocking moment it brought everyone.
It was a few hours after the training ended, where everybody was no longer in good shape. Everyone's tired, and sleepy, and our butts were aching. The TnT core members were saying their last few words when in the midst of everything, a sudden froot in the air burst. Haha... burst.
I was there, kinda shocked since it was really unexpected. I was there also when people eyed on me and asked, "sino yun?" I honestly and confidently told them, "Ako!" with my hands rose to heaven. Some laughed out loud with me, while some were stunned. Haha. Well, it was very unusual. Nobody knew how to confront it. But it's a human nature (Yikes, my defense mechanism, clique-ish!). Well, for me, it was a very funny thing.
Nobody dared to mention it on conversations, maybe because of my presence but later on, I was able to break it. I succeeded! Yehey. Bringing all the issues led to my own issue. Haha, the conyo froot.
Oh well, it's a funny thing to remember. Of course, embarrassing but something we all have to deal with, of course, with humor. I don't want to add more cliches about human nature so let me just end this by saying, it's ok to have a conyo froot, loud and clear, than to have it very soft yet deadly. Haha... Di ba pag malakas walang amoy, at pag walang tunog, malakas ang amoy. Wahaha. Buti nalang, aircon pa naman yun. Tsaka, I have nothing to blame but myself and mama. Pinasaya kasi akong sobra ni Mama. And I owe you a lot for that. I love you Mommaa! Thanks!
Poems
C'est Vrai
I'm happy.
No, I'm very happy.
Yes, in a sarcastic way.
No, I dunno what's happening.
Yes, you're confused.
No, I'm deceived.
Yes, you are not.
No, I'm just feelin' weird.
Yes, you are weird.
No, I can feel some anger inside.
Yes, you do.No, these are all projections.
Yes, you displace rather.
No, impossible since no medium.
Yes, there is, yourself.
No, it can't be.
Yes, you just can't accept it.
No, I'm acting the real thing.
Yes, the real you.
No, everything's not the real you.
Yes, people make the real you.
No, I let them make the real me.
Yes, that's what you show them.
No, you're right.
Yes, it's just that nobody knows you.
No, who knows?
Yes, it's complicated.
No, I just complicate things.
Yes, you are complicated.
No, I make things complicated.
Yes, the problem is you.
No, the problem is with me.
Yes, that is what they don't know about you.
No, I am just deceiving them.
Yes, they're deceived.
No.Yes.I am just not happy.
Dragged? Don’t be coz you'll never be.
Weird
I am weird.
Never been so weird.
Never negatively weird, I guess.
Thanks for the people I used to talk to, sensibly.
Thanks for the laughter.
Thanks for the moments.
Super thanks.
This is my only way of expressing how thankful I am having you.
8:05 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Mawnin Madness
I was supposed to compose this blog the other night but it didn't give me the right disposition to do it.
Oh well, after all the loneliness, I cannot really say what I feel right now. There were all sorts of emotions. As if I'm crazy or something. Maybe I was just looking for something I don't know. Or might as well looking for closure, but closure about what? Hell I don't know. Basta I don't know. There were anxieties, happiness, jealousies, things I cannot explain and noone can explain. I'm becoming senti, Yikes. But the thing is, I still have this perkiness (Haha, look sim, I've learned something from you). I can't really focus on things right now. I'm somewhat locked in an empty space. Oh well...
Abruptly… Mania
After seeing Ashton and Amanda, I was still sane. When I was on my way home, I was still sane. When I got home, I was still sane. When I've held the telephone for 30 minutes, I was still sane. Now, I still have my sanity but feeling something strange, which I cannot explain. I am sad and that's my choice.
Manic Disorder - too much happiness caused by extreme sadness. This might be the cause of everything.
But there's nothing to worry, no suicidal tendencies. Live love life. Haha.I can shift moods easily. I can be sad whenever I want. I can laugh until when I want to stop. I can be sad whenever I want to. This is me, this
8:06 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
